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Mourning of the Bells

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 20, 2009, 2:33 PM


Cheesy journal title, I know.


Allow me tell you about my day.



Today was like any other day, went to work at nine, worked, then got out at two. The interesting parts of my day happened DURING work.

See the store I work at is right across a church, catholic I believe,

anyways


Every now and then they ring their bells, usually randomly and at odd times. Recently I learned that not only do they randomly ring the bells, but they also ring them when there's a funeral going on inside. Well today I was outisde pushing carts, it was a grey day, looked like it was gonna rain, and the bells rang. It was haunting and comforting at the same time and I couldn't help but feel a sense of sympathy. I looked back over at the church as the bells rang and heard police sirens coming from it, the cop cars drove out of the parking lot, and a white herse came out after them. I watched as the herse drove out and was followed by two smaller cars that held the immediate family and the rows of cars that held their friends and other family. I stood there, holding the baskets that I was pushing, and I said to myself in my head.


"God, lay your hands upon them and lead their souls to rest." I then made the cross over my chest and went back to work with the bells still ringing.


After that I was put in a friendly mood, my faith felt like it had been returned by those bells, but as quickly as they came, they were quickly torn down.


A few hours later I was back outside pushnig carts with one of my co-workers when this homeless looking guy came up to us and asked us if we had fifty cents we could give him so he could use the pay phone. At this time I was feeling generous and gave him fifty cents that I had in my pocket. He thanked and blessed me at the same time, I told him that it was no problem and that he was lucky that our coke machine wasn't working. He laughed and proceeded to use the phone and I went back into the store.

No more then ten minutes later, my co-worker comes to my and tells me not to give him money any more. I asked why, and she told me that he asks for money so that he could buy drugs. I told her, well that's fine and all but I heard him put the money in the payphone, she told me that she watched him and that he was only playing with the keys then took my fifty cents and left without making a call.



I felt like a complete idiot.



I never give money to strangers, cause I always think those things. That they only want it buy beer or drugs, but the one time that I feel generous and giving, it ends up coming back at me. It made me think that you can't trust ANYBODY in this world, and the ones you can trust are shunned and ignored because of all the people who have tarnished the word TRUST.


I was in a bad mood for awhile, but it passed. Can't dwell on it or it'll just fester inside you and make you depressed.


TL:DR? There ARE people in this world that you can trust, it just takes awhile to find them.





On to a lighter note, I am watching the movie The Green Mile.

This is truly a beautiful movie and it is THE only movie that can jerk and twist my emotions around and make me keep coming back for more. I HIGHLY recommend it.






STAMPS:





















  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Feel Good Inc - Gorrilaz
  • Watching: The Green Mile
  • Eating: Ate a burger
  • Drinking: Soda

deviantID

Because I can


zee390: I love this quote
zee390: "NO IT'S MY INDEX FINGER AND I SHALL DO WITH IT AS I PLEASE"
Ryn: 8D
zee390: That's my new quote
Ryn: 8D
zee390: There
Ryn: <3333333333333333333333AWESOME
zee390: Let people read it and get the wrong message
Ryn: 8D
Ryn: Or the right message.
zee390: Whatever that is
Ryn: Indecent, whatever it may be. 8D
zee390: Hurr


*******

zee390: I am not skydiving
Ryn: you should be
Ryn: we all should be
zee390: Heeeeeelllll no
Ryn: but what if it was skydiving à la 300?
zee390: I'd rather defy stupidity then gravity
Ryn: you stand at the edge of the plane with your parachute
Ryn: and the instructor just is like
Ryn: YOU!
Ryn: ARE!
Ryn: SKYDIVIIIIIIIIIIIIING!
Ryn: and just SPARTAkicks you out of the airplane.
zee390: I'd jump in a pit
Ryn: not out of an airplane you wouldn't
zee390: Who's says i'd be on a plane?
zee390: I'm really on a boat
zee390: that just looks like a plane
Ryn: ...A MOTHERFUCKIN' BOAT?
Ryn: aw.
Ryn: then skydiving doesn't count.
zee390: It does if I jump off it
zee390: with floaties instead of a parachute
Ryn: : <
Ryn: doesn't coint/
Ryn: *count
zee390: Well of course it doesn't coint
Ryn: naturally.


***********

Sem: YOU ARE AWFUL ZEE JUST AWFUL <3
zee390: OH ME~
zee390: Psh it's quite tame really....somewhat.
Sem: ... hurr
Sem: HURR
Sem: OH YOU~
Sem: No it's because Zee wants Inverted so bad. -awesomeface-
Sem: SO BAD.
Sem: x'D
zee390: D8
zee390: How did you learn my secret?
Sem: ... RIPPER TOLD ME.
Sem: AT THE BAR LAST NIGHT.
Sem: WE WERE BOTH DRUNK AS HELL AND HE WAS LIKE
Sem: "OH MAN DID I FORGET TO MENTION THAT ZEE WANTS INVERTED'S ASS?"
Sem: AND I WAS LIKE
Sem: "ORLY?"
Sem: AND HE WAS LIKE
Sem: "YARLY!"
Sem: AND WE ROFL'D ALL NIGHT LONG
Sem: ...
Sem: yeah.
zee390: *is totally crying from laughing*

*********

Ryn: however
Ryn: you can convince me
Ryn: by asking nicely. : D
zee390: Psh not me
zee390: Not even to climb onto a chair
zee390: I'd be like FUCK YOU, YOU GET ON THE DAMN CHAIR
Ryn: OKAY
Ryn: *gets on the chair*
zee390: NOW CHANGE THAT LIGHTBULB
Ryn: NO
Ryn: FUCK YOU
Ryn: CHANGE YOUR OWN GODDAMN LIGHTBULB
Ryn: *storms off*
zee390: DAMN KIDS AND THEIR MUSIC
Ryn: *listens to DAMN KIDS MUSIC*

***********

Zeecracker says:
You just jinxed yourself
Ryncookie >: says:
nooooo it's not jinxing unless mike says it
Zeecracker says:
Well I don't know who mike is so it still counts
Ryncookie >: says:
OH a chaperone from when we were in nicaragua
us: *on this incredibly hard hike*
mike: WELL AT LEAST IT'S NOT RAINING RIGHT GUYS
weather: *STORM, BITCHES*
and then
us: *riding on top of a bus and ducking branches*
mike: on the bright side the branches coming at us aren't full of fruit- *nearly gets hit by a mango*
and and
us: *at a group meeting*
mike: WOW YOU GUYS ARE THE HEALTHIEST GROUP OF PEOPLE I'VE EVER TRAVELED WITH : D
four or five of us: *have to go to the clinic next day for everything ranging from ear fungus to intestinal bleeding*
and finally
us: *in a forest full of monkeys*
mike: ...hey, they're not pooping on us!  : D
and
you can guess
what happened next.
SO YES MIKE WAS THE GOD OF JINXING THINGS
Zeecracker says:
I take back what I said



****************


THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
haha, i know that much
loading
...D: it's all tiny
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
Wha?
but I haven't changed it's size or anything
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
D: i dunno
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
....
let's try the file one more time
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:

maybe it's too big
try uploading pieces?  >:
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
Let's try this one more time, if it's still acting up then i'll cut them up
and the file took half an hour to load
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
D':
i'm sorryyy
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
not your fault lD
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
STILL D:
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
<333
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
Got damn it
it failed
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
DD:
ffffffffff try imageshack?
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
here I just shortened it
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
geh it's still too big
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
D: did it stop again?
ALSO
THIS WHOLE CONVERSATION
COULD GO IN AIRQUOTES
FOR MASSIVE LOL
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
wha....pfffft
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
IT COULD SERIOUSLY
YOU SEE THAT?
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
Where should I start?
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
*airquotes*
um
you call it : D
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
lD
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
GODDAMN THIS WHOLE TALK IS LOADED WITH INNUENDO
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
I didn't even see it till you mentioned it
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
....I don't even know where to start for the quote
Where's a funny place to start?
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
THE WHOLE THING for me at least
IT'S TOO BIG IT WON'T WORK
maybe if you shortened it
try doing it in pieces
The reader of Sherlock Sem and Ryn Watson says:
pfffft
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
IT'S GOING REALLY SLOWLY I'M SORRY
no that's fine : D
IT'S STILL TOO BIG
it really is, huh >:


***************

THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
but dude hey
are you sure you're alright?  >:
i don't want you to be sick D: you should sleeps
Zee3p0 says:
Don't you make me go to bed *shakes finger*
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
I'M OLDER THAN YOU, I CAN DO THIS
DON'T CORRECT ME
I'M... LIKE, NEGATIVE THREE YEARS OLDER
IT COUNTS
Zee3p0 says:
.....fffff
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
:3
Zee3p0 says:
That's going on the wall


*************

THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
(530): You screamed, "I am going to fuck this cheeseburger". They all started laughing until you actually started having sex with the cheeseburger.


i know
a guy like that
Zeelium says:
(215): i got kicked out of Barns and Nobles cuz i put all the bibles in the fiction section
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
his name is zach and he is amazing
Zeelium says:
lol what
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
RYN
I AM
GOING TO FUCK YOUR BACKPACK
okay you do that
...
are you seriously- CUT THAT OUT D:
Zeelium says:
X'DDDDD AHAHAHAHAHAHA
THE HONORABLE RYN WATSON, ESQ. says:
at least his pants stayed on
and that
is why
i love my acting class
so
SO
MUCH.

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: The Lone Star State
  • Interests: Manga, Video games, Books, Movies, Cartoons, Webcomics and peanut butter
  • Favourite movie: Too many to list.
  • Favourite band or musician: The Eagles, Billy Idol, Wild Cherry, Pattie Labelle, ACDC, etc
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock, Funk, Disco, Hip-Hop, Country, Jazz, and a little bit of rap.
  • Favourite artist: Akira Kurosawa and Jhonen Vasquez
  • Favourite poet or writer: The girl who wrote "Demon in my View" and Stephen King.
  • Favourite photographer: Peter Parker
  • Favourite style of art: Anything that interests me
  • Operating System: Photoshop Elements 5.0
  • MP3 player of choice: Whatever works and is below 40 bucks
  • Shell of choice: Taco?
  • Wallpaper of choice: Whatever I love right now
  • Skin of choice: Mine
  • Favourite game: DMC3, all Ratchet and Clank games, all Sly Cooper, Kingdom Hearts I&II, and RE4
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2 and N64, only ones I have. Though a PS3 or 360 would be nice.
  • Favourite cartoon character: L from DeathNote plus many many more.
  • Personal Quote: I still wanna know why I don't get a laser gun.
  • Tools of the Trade: Wacom Bamboo tablet and Photoshop 5.0

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